Dear Diary,

I know…right. What the hell happened here?

Life got in the way of my goals and I didn’t know what I was doing.

I’m having an other go…on day (roughly) 2228. This means I have not failed as I am still trying. Not only that, I’ve learned a lot and of course, a lot has happened in these last 2146 days since my last Dear Diary. Including how to schedule properly and stop procrastinating!!

I’ll start with what I’m doing now and fill in the gaps as I go along.

I’m about to start on a speaking career. Whenever I see someone speaking about motivational or interesting topics, I have always thought “I want to do that too!” Over the years I have done some speaking at Nutri-Metics Seminars, sporting and other social clubs I’ve been associated with. I love it. So what stopped me following this dream?

I know now that I made a stupid assumption over all those years that everyone wants to do that and that it would be really hard to ever get a gig! It’s a stupid assumption because as most of us know, public speaking is not what most people want to do! I also thought a man was a plan. That he would be my support, my kick in the bum, my motivator. Yes, I’ve learned a lot and now I know, a man is not a plan. I killed off my own dream without even giving it a go.

Now, I’m a motivated, creative and strong single woman with a passion. I have a topic for my talks which I can adapt to business, personal and health related audiences. I have so much to offer since I’ve been a seminar junkie for so many years. Attending but never doing anything (real) about all the information. My talks are called ‘Stronger Than My Excuses’. I’ve been through enough both with my health, my business and my personal life to be an ‘expert’ on this topic so I’m going out there and just starting. It won’t be perfect at first, but I will start small and learn from each mistake. The point here is I’m Starting!

I learned from Mel Robbins to make your goals so big that it’s embarrassing. Embarrassing because you are still sitting in the same home wearing the same clothes driving the same car. On the outside no-one can see any changes, but on the inside you are absolutely driven to achieve this goal. So…here goes:

My goal is to speak across America and the world, and be known in more countries and on more channels than Mel Robbins. It’s amazing watching her. She is around my age, has a similar look about her, has a similar personality with a little humour, a real passion in her talks and an excitement that is energising. She is the reason that I could really see myself doing this! I won’t compete with her, but I will use her as my target to go beyond. In America, with my Aussie accent, I really think I can achieve this goal.

I won’t be telling too many people, again, because it’s embarrassing because I’m not there yet. But…it’s what I’m focused on now and it feels great!

Stay tuned…

P.S. I write fast so I apologise for the spelling or grammar errors. I hope it all makes sense.